"Lord I'm amazed by you ...how you love me."
Beautiful lyrics to a song my son, Colin, chose to lead in times of worship. Many times I was priviledged to join him in singing along. I always loved his choice of songs but most of all the heart behind the choice. He taught me so much and I don't think he even knew he was teaching me. Things like leaving all pretense behind, forgetting about man's expectations and simply, purely expressing love to our Lord in song. I miss the days of singing with Colin but I will forever be grateful for the lessons learned in our times together.
I was reminded just how amazed I can be, last night. I had read something just before bedtime that had really upset me. I tried not to think about it but the harder I tried the worse I felt. Marty had read the same thing but for some reason he had peace and I did not! He told me things like "It's going to be ok! God is in Control!", which is very true, but the more he tried to comfort me... the worse I felt! He is so very wise! So steady! It is a wonderful thing but this was real and maybe it was worth a sleepless night! I Know, I know better! Why can we know better but stay in the worried place. What was the best thing to do in this situation? That's right, Pray. And so, We prayed. Marty prayed. I worried. I just couldn't shake it. I tossed and turned and worried. My dad used to say, also a wise and steady man, "Sometimes we just get down on our knees and worry a while!" Funny how things he said come back to me at the perfect time! I knew there was nothing I could do in that moment to help the situation and it was going to be a very long night if I didn't really bring my burden to the Lord. I couldn't just agree with Marty or know better or pretend I wasn't worried, I had to bring it to Jesus and leave it there. Up out of the bed for me, while Marty was peacefully going to sleep, and down to serious business with my Lord! Oh the Joy! Truly!! At first, all I could do was cry! Now, not just a little whimper, this was a good let it all out cry! But then something happened, I started praying, really praying! Standing on the word praying! What a release! I know that may sound like great desperation, great weakness, but the word says in 1 Corinthians 12:9 "And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness."
Sometimes I think we try to be so strong that we don't experience, His strength! We try to push the problem away instead of embracing the pain of the moment and rolling it over on the only one big enough to handle it! That is our God! I'm telling you I could not shake the feeling of despair I had but Jesus lifted it completely. So completely that I went back to bed and slept like a baby. In the morning, the problem had not changed, but I had certainly changed! I looked for the worry, it wasn't there. I thought about how troubled I had been and realized it was gone. There was not an ounce of trouble in me! I knew the problem was only on the outside of me, no longer on the inside! God's wonderful peace had taken complete control! Now that's Amazing! Lord, I'm amazed by you...How you love me.
Would you bring your burden to this Lord who Loves You? He really does. No matter where you find yourself right now, no matter the problem that came to your mind as you read this, He really loves you and cares for you! He can help you and comfort you like no one else can! There is Nothing impossible with Him!(Luke 1:37) Would you trust Him, right now? Maybe you have to lay down the fight of taking care of things for yourself, fighting your own battles, running around in circles and never getting past anything. You may say, "Patti, maybe that works for you but you don't know what I'm up against", and you would be right, but I know someone who knows. His name is Jesus and if you will call on Him right where you are, right now in this moment, He will make all the difference in your life.
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1 Peter 5:7 "Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you."
May God Bless you my friends!
"Amazed" lyrics by Green, Marv/Mayo,Aimee/Lindsey,Chris published by Lyrics Warner/Chappell Music Inc., Universal Music Publishing Group, Chrysalis One Music